Sorry for blogging so little yesterday due to the fact that i was out k boxing with my cousins haha... Nice outing although it is always the 3 of us haha... That show how close our relationship is la... No doubt they are the ones that watch me grow up to the nicky i'm now haha.. And of course they are the one who know my all my inner feeling haha... I simply love these two cousin of mine =)
Alright shall let u all know something ha... On Sunday night was talking to shan haha... She suddenly ask me whether i hav blog a not so i say yea and i gave her mine... She read le and she explain to me that at first when she read my ex blog she didn't think too much.. Is just because that there is another someone who found my ex blog and give it to her Who keep telling her things and that she believe... I seriously hated this type of ppl... Remember last time me and dada relationship haiz is also because of this type of ppl la and i always tell her if last time that din happen i think we will still be together now.. So why does this things still happen to me.. I'm not blaming anyone or him coz i know he is also wooing shan so he will try every possible thing to get rid of his rival.. But nvm is ok the air has clear now and that the previous post of the 4 song were sent to me by shan haha.. Was realli happy on Sunday i really thought we could go back to the old days haha.. How wrong am i to think bout that...
Maybe i should already knoe that she dun hav feeling for me... Yesterday After K box went to meet heng to eat dinner at clementi haha... While chatting he ask how is me and shan haha and i reply not good and he ask me one question that left me thinking.. He ask does shan hav feeling for me or something like that la... i say dunno haha... After on the way home kept thinking bout this haiz couldn't get it off my mind... Reach home le switch on my lappy and onli to find that my lappy speaker spoil now got keep got a sound super irriating haha.. Later going to send my lappy for repairs.. So online and told shan that my lappy spoil so i went offline. We texted each other for a while before i ask her " Do u think is possible for the two of us to be together..." She reply i can't say yes and i can't say no also.. I dun hav a definite ans... " i reply back " Let me rephrase the qns am I in your heart " after that no reply till now haha...
Is not that i'm forcing u my love is just to let myself know where is really stand in ur heart ha.. After yesterday i think i know.. Like i told u yesterday In my 22 years of life U are the second girl that realli make mi fall real deep the first one didn't turn out well. You can ask zong yan bout that. I began to understand that you still dunno what you want in ur relationship. Although it maybe hurting to know but seriously i dunno what i can do except to wait haiz... Seriously there are a lot of time that i truly wanna give up this relationship of us but... 这段情我放不开... Is juz like what my Msn nick say.. Wo de Zhui Da Xin Fu, Shi Fa Xian Wo Ai Ni... Ke Shi Rang Wo Shang De Zhui Sheng De Ren Ye Shi Ni.... I still hope to hear from you seriously... i will still Be here waiting... Take care my love... Maybe in the first place i shouldn't have went to know you and fall for u then all this thing won''t happen =) Juz wan u to Know that no matter what just remember that there is a nicky that left his footprint and his heart in your heart in this lifetime =)
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