Disappointing

Haiz... Do you really hate me that much haiz... So much so as to u even reject the testimonal that i wrote for u ? i'm not angry just disappointed... Why muz all these happen? how can one's feeling change so fast.. Ah this is making my nuts... Do u know u are torturing me? Do u know how hurting this can be ? Maybe i realli should give up... But at the back of my mind there's a voice which is telling dun... Seems like in the first place is only me that really have feeling for you yea... Haiz how come ppl around are all suffering rough patches in life... Oh god Help me please...