I'm Back my dear friends...

Yoz peeps nicky is back hahas…

Firstly I wanna say sorry hadn’t been updating my blog for somedays hahas… Due to the fact that I’m keeping myself busy so that I won’t anyhow think lolls… Started working at vivo city and it was great although there was a couple of times really damn bored hahas got no customers but luckily I got Kenny to company me haha.. We play soccer in the shop HAHAs… how’s that for working =) been havingmany late night outing these few days feel like I’m back at levis Coz I hung out with the same old ppl haha.. So fun Tomolo will hav another night outing at kim Seng Rd haha…

Anyway I come to a conclusion well some of my frenz know what is going to happen but I just hope for the best…

To shan: I still miss u… A Lot…

Working time =)

All of you muz be thingking that i'm not updating my blog le right haha... When thats not the case just tat yesterday i was sleeping the whole day la due the the fact that i was at hoe yong birthday chalet the previous day and we will playing mahjong till like 730 haha.. After which hoe yong frenz send mi and angela back home and i went to school for some talk la.. The talk was suppose to be till 3 in the afternoon haha... but at around 12 i was too tired la when we were going for lunch i just tell marco and ziyu i'm going home to slp haha.. Then off i went and i took cab home somemore haha.. reach home bath le slp haha... slp till 10 plus then wake up eat dinner and slp again...

Now i'm in school haiz... Actually dun need to come one but because of some reason we need to come... hahas so wake up at 11 plus coz ziyu call mi and say teacher want us to come so no choice have to come down haha... now in the project room so sianz la... Oh ya later be going to work haha... Uncle ( my levis supervisior last time we all call him uncle ) call mi to go down to his workplace there to work haha... Not going to tell u all at where but the chance of you all seeing me will be quite high ba haha... Will be working with kenny ( ex levis staff ) but dunno whether fun a not be selling wine and arts pieces haha so not me hor =) Won't have so much time to go out play le and there goes my clubbing, mahjong, soccer, slacking, chilling, gaming and chatting days =) time to save up some money haha... Ciaoz...

To shan : Hey babe missing ah haha... how's your job hunting going ? hope it will be good yea.. take care babe =)

Happy day...

Yesterday Was at home feeling bored so i call Ah yan to see whether she is free to meet a not haha... But she is already outside haha outside with another guy haha.. Seems like my Ah yan is so popular haha.. but considering the fact that i msg her at round 6 plus haha coz that was the time that i woke up ? hahas Din go school yesterday haiz coz I din sleep the previous night so damn tired and went to take Mc haha.. While on the way to take Mc i call dada and she was sick i mean really sick and funny thing is that when i told her that i'm going to see doctor she say " Haiya you didn't say earlier if not we can see doc together " LOL i was like WTH my dada is so funny haha... So after that went to West mall to buy movie ticket Coz Ah yan agree to meet mi for movie haha... Watch Stomp The Yard haha wasn't realli what i expect the dance show to be but nevertheless is still a good movie haha...

Reach home and went online and webcam with everyone i know haha.. Suddenly i feel so sianz la.. Was web camming with joc and she ask me and shan how le.. I say no chance but still hurt and still hoping.. She reply but you dun look sad... Well i say i dun hav to protray my saddness to others to affect their mood =) thats me... Those who know me will know... Like what dada Say when i have problems i'll never show it to me friends but she know deep down inside i'm thinking much... That's how much this darling of mine understand me =)

Yesterday night i din sleep again i dunno what's happening to me la but whenever i lie on my bed and close my eyes My mind wanders and saddness engulf me... So i rather dun sleep and wait till when i'm realli tired then i can sleep the moment my head touch my pillow =) But someone brought a smile to me and made my day a happy one =) A good night msg at 3.12 Am was all i need to wash away all the saddness in me =) But i hate myself haha coz i switch my phone to slient mode and I din notice until this morning when i'm going to sch ha... Reply back a good morning and see if she will to reply...

Oh ya another thing My fav cousin had juz booked her air ticket to london haiz gonna miss her coz she will be going there to work for 2 yrs haiz I'll MISS HER... no more k boxing no more supper... Haiz so sad =(

To shan : i'm so good to miss shan shan everyday got something to write for her =) hope you are doing fine =) i dunno what will happen to us in the future but i wan you to knoe that i'm happy with the way we are now... And ur msg like old times brought a smile to my face and made my day =) miss ya =)

Back to the future haha...

Hey people nicky is back…

Hahas wat a weekend for me.. Saturaday was out with Darren Sim and Jonathan Teo haha in Ngee Ann to play soccer from 3 pm play till 7 plus then we went home to change and went to cheng cheng house to celebrate his birthday haha.. Onli me Darren Eugene albert and Ivan was present haiz.. The rest all tio confinement hahas… Actually I not going but cheng cheng brother so muz go after that slack at his place till 10 plus then went to St James for PK birthday celebration haha… All levis staff were there haha so fun about 20 plus ppl will there to celebrate so fun.. When the birthday boy come Dik give him one shot haha super powerful hahas birthday boy after he drank that he high haha… then after a while he is gone haha… First time I see PK drunk la powerful la… We went dancing and drinking and I muz say Tiger Live is fun hahas the R&B is so nice =) suddenly I love clubbing can let mi forget my problem for that period of time hahas and hav fun =) So we club till 4 and went to have breakfast at mac slack around till 6 plus and went home ha…


And u thought I go home sleep right haha no I went home to bath le then online and wait for time to pass because I got soccer at 8 am haha when is around 745 my father woke up and I call him to fetch me to woodland there to meet my frenz for soccer haha… Yesterday game was not good la haiz my friend dunno what the hell they thinking always pass left side haha I’m at the right side there no ppl mark haha tired of running la… after that went home and KO sleep till 6 plus wake up go dinner with my family and when we came back Mahjong session and mi and my sis won 20 plus haha coz she share with me haha.. So fun lor Malaysia mahjong so nice =)


To Shan : I dunno whether you can see this a not I dunno whether you still visit my blog after that time =) I hope u to blog too ok dun be lazy la coz at least from there I could know how you are doing and what’s happening to your life now… Although I say I give up but u still appear in my mind every now and then… Maybe I really need time to heal all pain haha I still sms you everyday although not so much but I’m just scare that You forgot who nicky is =) Take care and enjoy ya life dun be sad le ok =)

Updates hahas...

Suddenly After so much things that had happen I think I’ve learn how to give up… There is no point forcing her to tell me things that I wanna know and things that she dun wanna say… So After 3 days without any sms I know is time to let go.. She won’t miss me I know cause there are so many guys that are waiting to look after her right now… If given a choice I will still choose want to know her although is hurting but she let me know again what I really want in love =) I dunno how long I need to wash away all the hurt but no matter what I will ha.. I wan to enjoy single life now but with her in my mind once in a while coz I know to forget her in short a short time is hard haha but I will try to… I believe in Something which is If you are meant to be you will be no matter what happen =)


To shan.. Look how far we have come haha although in the end the ending is not what I wanted but I still wanna thank you for giving all those good mermories haha especially the movie we had and the sms after that at that point of time I really thought that we could be together but haha maybe heaven is playing a joke on me… Things happen and I dun blame you coz I can onli blame myself haha.. No matter what u still ccupy a huge portion of my heart now.. Take care and hope u can find ur one soon =) Remember to choose those good one ok dun be like last time =) All the best My love ( for the last time)
Ciaoz…

Sorry...

Read her blog today haiz.. felt i'm such a crap...

To shan: Sorry i din know that ytd such a thing happen to you.. I know i dunno what is happening but i know i shouldn't add to your problems now.. Saw ur post and it struck mi hard... How insenstive i am... remember the song u send mi ? "Tell mi Where it hurt Now baby And i do my best to make it better... Yes, I'll do my best to make those tears all go away Just tell me where it hurts Now, tell me And I love you with a love so tender Oh and if you let me stay I'll love all of the hurt away..." I will realli try to make ur hurt go away... =) Is there anything i can do ? i'm sorry... Sorry for being so insensitive...

Updates...

Sorry for blogging so little yesterday due to the fact that i was out k boxing with my cousins haha... Nice outing although it is always the 3 of us haha... That show how close our relationship is la... No doubt they are the ones that watch me grow up to the nicky i'm now haha.. And of course they are the one who know my all my inner feeling haha... I simply love these two cousin of mine =)

Alright shall let u all know something ha... On Sunday night was talking to shan haha... She suddenly ask me whether i hav blog a not so i say yea and i gave her mine... She read le and she explain to me that at first when she read my ex blog she didn't think too much.. Is just because that there is another someone who found my ex blog and give it to her Who keep telling her things and that she believe... I seriously hated this type of ppl... Remember last time me and dada relationship haiz is also because of this type of ppl la and i always tell her if last time that din happen i think we will still be together now.. So why does this things still happen to me.. I'm not blaming anyone or him coz i know he is also wooing shan so he will try every possible thing to get rid of his rival.. But nvm is ok the air has clear now and that the previous post of the 4 song were sent to me by shan haha.. Was realli happy on Sunday i really thought we could go back to the old days haha.. How wrong am i to think bout that...

Maybe i should already knoe that she dun hav feeling for me... Yesterday After K box went to meet heng to eat dinner at clementi haha... While chatting he ask how is me and shan haha and i reply not good and he ask me one question that left me thinking.. He ask does shan hav feeling for me or something like that la... i say dunno haha... After on the way home kept thinking bout this haiz couldn't get it off my mind... Reach home le switch on my lappy and onli to find that my lappy speaker spoil now got keep got a sound super irriating haha.. Later going to send my lappy for repairs.. So online and told shan that my lappy spoil so i went offline. We texted each other for a while before i ask her " Do u think is possible for the two of us to be together..." She reply i can't say yes and i can't say no also.. I dun hav a definite ans... " i reply back " Let me rephrase the qns am I in your heart " after that no reply till now haha...

Is not that i'm forcing u my love is just to let myself know where is really stand in ur heart ha.. After yesterday i think i know.. Like i told u yesterday In my 22 years of life U are the second girl that realli make mi fall real deep the first one didn't turn out well. You can ask zong yan bout that. I began to understand that you still dunno what you want in ur relationship. Although it maybe hurting to know but seriously i dunno what i can do except to wait haiz... Seriously there are a lot of time that i truly wanna give up this relationship of us but... 这段情我放不开... Is juz like what my Msn nick say.. Wo de Zhui Da Xin Fu, Shi Fa Xian Wo Ai Ni... Ke Shi Rang Wo Shang De Zhui Sheng De Ren Ye Shi Ni.... I still hope to hear from you seriously... i will still Be here waiting... Take care my love... Maybe in the first place i shouldn't have went to know you and fall for u then all this thing won''t happen =) Juz wan u to Know that no matter what just remember that there is a nicky that left his footprint and his heart in your heart in this lifetime =)

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Shall update tomolo haha... today late le...

Althought the air has clear but i'm still sad haiz...

Four song i received from someone special yesterday...

First Song
刘畊宏 情画
画上的油彩
早已被风干
该怎么来完成我不明白
记忆的图案 放在旧货摊
我担心会有谁懂的疼爱
雪白的礼服 挂在那等待
淡淡的灰朦有一丝悲哀
教堂门已开 而你却不在
玫瑰步道看不到末端
我孤单 我不安
思绪被封住了口
黑夜却还是不罢手
强颜欢笑背后
在暗淡中摸索
我祈祷 只愿你听得到
从分开到现在
我过的我在习惯
伤痛却依然在扩散
时间不听使唤
为回忆上了锁
这段情我已放不开
这段情我放不开

Second Song

Tell Me Where It Hurts MYMP
Why is that sad look in your eyes
Why are you crying?
Tell me now, tell me now
Tell me, why you're feelin' this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby!
Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do
[Chorus:] Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make those tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away
Where are all those tears comin’ from
Why are they falling? somebody, somebody, somebody left your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby
Give me a chance
To put back all the pieces
Take hold of your heart
Make it just like new
There's so many things that I can do
[Chorus] [Instrumental] Hmm.. wanna take you all the way..
Is it your heart Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry Makin' you feel blue Is there anything that I can do
[Chorus] Tell me baby, tell me, ooh..yeah.. is there anything that I can do babe..
Just tell me where it hurts Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh, and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

Third Song

Tu Amor
Mi amor I’m not sure of the right words to say
Maybe these simple words will do best to best explain
What I feel in my heart What I feel more each day
Ohh... How to make you see How to let you know
How to say how to say how I love you so
With words you understand
Words that get right through to your heart
Here’s the place to start
Chorus: Tu Amor, I will always be
Tu Amor, means the world to me
Esteras siempre en mi corazon
You’re the one in my soul And I live for tu amor, tu amor
Mi amor love you more with each look in your eyes
Maybe these simple words will do best to best describe
What I feel in my heart What I’ll feel for all time
Ohh... How to make you see How to let you know
How to say how to say how I need you so
words you understand Words that get through to your soul
Words that will let you know
Chorus: Tu Amor, I will always be
Tu Amor, means the world to me
Esteras siempre en mi corazon
You’re the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor
Bridge: You’re the one that I need in my arms
Believe me these words I say are words that come straight from my heart
How do I make you believe
Nothing else means as much as what you mean to me
Chorus: Tu Amor, I will always be
Tu Amor, means the world to me
Esteras siempre en mi corazon
You’re the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor, tu amor tu amor tu amor

Fourth Song

Artist Name- Shakira Song lyrics- Illegal

Who would have thought
That you could hurt me
The way you've done it?
So deliberate, so determined
And since you have been gone
I bite my nails for days and hours
And question my own questions on and on
So tell me now, tell me now
Why you're so far away
When I'm still so close
You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
I tried so hard to be attentive
To all you wanted
Always supportive, always patient
What did I do wrong?
I'm wondering for days and hours
It's here, it isn't here where you belong
Anyhow, anyhow I wish you both all the best I hope you get along
But you don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
Open heart Open heart It should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
Open heart Open heart It should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart legal to deceive a woman's heart

This four song i like =)

I miss her so

Today wake up and the first things i heard is my mother nagging at me... Suddenly have the urge to go out ah and leave my house.. The feeling is not good when you are missing someone badly and yet hav ppl nagging at u haha... So was rotting at home.. And is always at this point of time that the feeling of missing her came so strongly... So went online and ask bros to go out... however, Everyone was busy so no choice go play games and read newspaper... Just when i was about to fall asleep my bro call mi haha... He ask me wanna go IT fair a not then i say Wa it fair again.... But i agree in the end also haha... so went to his house there to meet him and went to find Kc and off we went to It fair...
When we reached there the moment we went in Darren saw his ex... Darren had the same problem as me regarding relationship stuff... Just that he and his ex are together once but me and shan we didn't even had the chance to be together... I REALLI HOPE THERE A GUARDIAN ANGEL THAT WILL APPEAR AND HELP ME... i really love her a lot... those who knoe me will knoe.. Normally when i fail to woo a girl and she reject i wil move on without thinking but this time i think i'm dead serious i'm still here she still occupy all my heart.. My mind still think of her the moment i'm alone.. Who can understand how i feel... My frenz are all telling me to give up haha is not as easy as u say... Haiz I realli miss her... I dunno how will she feel when she see this blog of mine.. Will she feel disgusted or touched...
Yesterday i ask YY and angela if ur bf lie to you will you forgive him.. Both of them say they will listen to what they have to say... And will forgive them... So much is their love for them... How come Shan wun even give me a chance to explain ? Is it because of the fact that she was hurt once ? AHHHHHHHH a lot has been on my mind since this happen... Keep thinking what can i do to savage something from this relationship But haiz... I NEED A GUARDIAN ANGEL.. really i dun mind short life or what i seriously wan her onli haiz...
Shan I L U... I meet Those time u scold mi Sheng Jing Bing and ni you Bing ah when i say mushy thing to u I really miss those times....

Busy Day

HAHA today was such a busy day for me la...

Morning 930 wake up meet darren go soccer haha then when playing soccer there is this girl with her bf la... Then i think because of the fact the weather too hot then she took off her top and wear only a bikini haha... All of the guys there including mi Was shocked lol... But she not pretty haha... Today soccer game was good =) score two stunning goal haha... After that 2 went home to rest...

Then 3 plus went to Ngee Ann soccer again haha... Played with jonathan again... Then at 5 plus went home and bath and dress up and off i went to meet YY and angela haha... Yeah Yeah i know u all muz be thinking why YY right... She is my new found friend... Don't think too much okok =) there is onli one person in my heart =) haha somemore YY got bf le so impossible haha...

Today morning shan msg mi morning haha so happi but halfway thur msg she suddenly stop le... Haiz i realli dunno wat to do haiz... But i miss her so...

Short Blog

HAHA tomolo is going to be a busy day for me.. Coz i got two sessions of soccer at morning and afternoon lol.. Wish me luck =)

Moving on...

8th of March

Yesterday talk to a friend of mine haha she realli understand me well man... Didn't really expected it but i managed to get to know her more from yesterday... Somemore some ppl say give me morning call in the end didn't call haha... Box u ah.. =) To Miss YY... didn't know We think alike haha.. Anyway i think we will probrably be collegue but different company just that we are working at the same place haha.. Told you yesterday right haha... Take care yea and I found another person to listen to my shit...

Anyway this let me know that friends are always there for you when u are going through rough patches of life... Just like what's happening to me now =) Later i'm going to nyp to look for Ah Yan.. Her graduation show so must go but got le got another problem cause shan is in the same course as Yan.. So later go there can only rely on Yan to get me out of trouble =) she told me that she wanna bring me go tour NYP haha.. So cute ah she hor.. 8 years of Friendship and can safety tell you that i never regretted knowing you and standing by your side whenever others tried to talk bad about you.. =)

Yesterday there was no sms from her haha... Finally after one month and 4 days this is the first time she didn't reply me the whole day haha... Maybe she is just stress out by her graduation show stuff haha.. It always happen to her when she is doing her work... She will always be so stress up haha... Last time i still can show my care and concern haha now..... Hard to say... Ok ba blog enough le now is my turn to do project le...

To shan.. I still havent given up =) hope you still haven't given up on me... Yesterday a friend ask me are you worth the wait well guess u know the ans haha i'm waiting now =)

Cloudy day...

為什麼總是在對的時間, 和錯的人相遇? 如果你覺得你會傷害我, 就請離我遠一點, 那我一定會很感激你^-^

Saw this in her blog... Haizz i'm sorry but i really think that i won't hurt you.. u say at the right time.. Right time for love but meet the wrong person which is me? haiz i also wanna to distant from u but how can u tell me how to ?

Disappointing

Haiz... Do you really hate me that much haiz... So much so as to u even reject the testimonal that i wrote for u ? i'm not angry just disappointed... Why muz all these happen? how can one's feeling change so fast.. Ah this is making my nuts... Do u know u are torturing me? Do u know how hurting this can be ? Maybe i realli should give up... But at the back of my mind there's a voice which is telling dun... Seems like in the first place is only me that really have feeling for you yea... Haiz how come ppl around are all suffering rough patches in life... Oh god Help me please...

So Meaningful

'Memories of love,with the aid of time,can prove cruelty to many..
therefore,what's sweet,precious,truthful and strong.. take it and treasure it..
and when it turns bitter,disappearing,lies and weak.. dont lie to yourself..
there's no way to forget,no way to give up..just let it heal with time..


How true haha totally described my feeling now...

Mermories of u... i will take it and treasure it... As for the things that stand between us i can onli let time heal all of that... I don't when will you ever be able to see this blog but i juz wanna to let u knoe tat at this very moment at the point of time there is a certain someone who is waiting for u patiently... I wish if i really can turn back time then all this won't happen.. This few days been sleeping quite early due to the fact that i think maybe like tat i won't miss her so often.. but how wrong am i, the moment i close my eyes she appear ha... Maybe by sleeping earlier time will pass faster yea and the day that she realli open up to me will be sooner... Haiz... I miss you... Like i always say i'm staring at the com waiting for your reply haha... I realli am doing that everytime u are online... However i wanna thank u for not avoiding me... Actually i'm consider quite fortunate le haha she still reply sms although not always but at least she reply a bit.. She still msn me when i msn her although her reply ping is not as fast as last time... I should be content with all this right... =) for now i can onli wait for miracles to happen...

Told someone this before....

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart...

How True Yea... Haha I'm missing you every sec are u?

When nightfall is really torturting cause images of you keeps flowing back
Although i dun wan the mermories to stop but is just too painful...
Now i can onli hope for the best... Hope you are doing fine =)

Saw this in Friendster

Every girl dreams that one day she willfind a boy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can havethe BIGGEST impact in someones life.

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• forgive her for her mistakes
• look at her like she`s the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• hold her hand when you`re around your friends.
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she`s sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
•give her the world.
• write her letters.
• let her wear your clothes
• when she`s sad, hold her.
• let her know she`s important.
• let her take all the photos she wants of you.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.#9829;
• and when you tell her, love her like you`ve never loved someone before.


How i wish i could tell her all these....

Confused

6th of March
Ytd whole day onli one msg from her haha that is when i sms her good night and she reply... Well i should be happy right she still make an effort to reply when i sms her good night.. Maybe all the sms that i send her she need to think?
Yesterday when i'm typing the previous post my tears just drop ha... thinking bout the days we sms all the things.. When i finally can sms her in genting think onli Gary know how i feel at that very moment.. Now i know how much she meant to me yea.. So i think i'm not going to press her bout the blog thing le i've done my best le.. Whether she will believe is now up to her le... Think i won't give her my address of the blog also if we are meant to be she will find my blog one haha.. we shall see lor.. For now i'll just be normal and sms her like normal frenz, although i knoe is quite hard but what else can i do ? Do u know how painful it is to think bout her the moment you closed ur eyes? For now i just hope time can waste away all pain... Maybe she will accept me again haha...
To heng.. Dun think so much la.. who say u are a jerk ? there is no right or wrong in a relationship yea.. so dun be sad as for ur case is more hurting i knoe after what she sms u... Sorry yesterday not there when u msn me.. But no worries Me and Gary are always there for you.. We are just a call away.. =)

To Shan... I dunno when would u be able to see this blog of mine but never mind just wanna say Thanks for all the happy mermories heez.. Dun think i'm going to give up coz i won't haha.. Take care and hope u can faster overcome the yin in within u... love ya =)

Hey Peeps i'm back to blog.. Well All of you must be anxious bout how it work out after i send her the mail. Well when she was online just now in the afternoon ha ask her whether she read le she reply no... So wait for her to read and type somethings to tell her.. Well the ans not really what i expected.. She just find ways to avoid the qns.. Some say she is afraid and call me to give her time.. So yea i did.. but after she went offline i sms her all the sms no reply wow.. So much for the fact that she still ask me to sms her when i'm free.. It really broke my heart i waited the whole day for her and all she told me was " i need to go wash my dog , Later when u free then msg me... " i'm free always for u I'm always free... Why is it that everytime those that you love dun love u back and those that u don't juz keep on coming.. I often pray to god ok i dun mind having short life dun mind being poor but just let me be with her is it so hard... And all this things i'm not wrong i didn't lie in the first place.. whateva i told u, i told all my friend the same thing... I knoe u have been hurt before by ur bf but i didn't.. i know is hard for you to trust anyone now, which is why i didn't force u or rush u to give me an ans.. After all that i'm done dun u feel anything... I'm like an idiot always checking my hp looking at the past 700 plus sms that we had and checking whether u are online a not and checking ur friendster Ahh is driving me nuts... But i still didn't give up i still wanna be the one to hold ur hand when u are ready i still wanna brave through all the bad times with u and share all ur happiness with u... Tell me am i Wrong... You told me not to sweet talk too much well i didn't le coz i know sweet talk too much cannot gain ur trust in me... Why muz all this things happen at this point of time... Now i'm still waiting ha... Now waiting has gradually become my fav pastime... But no matter how i will not give up i swear... Remb the 9 pm show and what u told me.. Jus now i sms u le but still no reply... I really believe if we will to get over this bad patch we will realli be together for long... now is a test for us... I'm not going to back down and i'm not going to admit defeat hope You won't too... I still hope we will be together Love ya........

Gone were the days that you will msn me once u saw me online…
Gone were the days that we msn till 5 in the morning…
Gone were the days that you sms me saying u miss me a little…
Gone were the days that you msg me good night…
Gone were the days that you scold me Sheng jing bing…
Gone were the days that you will say me Ni wu liao ah…
Gone were the days that we will sms till you fell asleep…
Gone were the days that the first sms of the day will be you…
Gone were the days that I knoe what you are doing…

Till now do u know how much I miss u ? Suddenly I Miss u a lot…

First Entry

5th Of March

I'm still waiting for her reply... Yesterday morning i send her a sms telling her how i feel... I never thought she would reply.. but she reply and she say that she found my ex blog and that she thought that i lie to her about how me and my ex broke off. I reply back telling her what happen and told her to give me a chance to explain every single blogpost that my ex post. She agree but said that she won't be be home early, i agree and say that i'll wait for her online to explain to her.. In the end at round 4 am she is still playing mahjong haha.. So i send her a msg hoping for her to read.. it contain all my thoughts and all my feelings... now i can onli wait for her to wake up and to read the msg and hope that everything turn out fine.. Words can't tell u how much she meant to me... I told her before she remind me of my ex but now i wanna tell her she is unqiue in her own way and is that unqiuness that attracted me to her... she is really my dream girl.. Although i know after what happen is hard for us to become like last time but what i tell u is the truth... i just hope tat u will really give me a chance...

This is my blog first entry haha think i will use this blog to tell all my feelings towards her here.. This blog will be onli available to frenz and families member that are close to mi =) Maybe after all that happen and if me and her can work out then i can let her see all my thoughts when i'm wooing her haha.. For now I've blog enough will blog again tonight...